There's moments when everything seems to be falling apart
I see the worst in who I am. Is that where I will go?
I imagine myself as a vile being
And I hate a part of me I don't understand
I want to grow and be successful
If I make money, so be it
If I live on the streets, I will wander
It matters more I discover who I am
Am I a person of peace,
or am I a person who will constantly mess up the opportunities set before me
spiral downward and end up regretting who I am
I don't want to hide anymore
I don't want to look the other way
It is easier to turn away from the truth because we can't accept it
So Tonight,
Maybe that will be something I will discover in my dreams
Maybe I will have to wait longer for me to accept who I really am
How do I rise above these insecurities and forgive myself for my own misperceptions
for my own misunderstanding and stubbornness