When i learn of you, peace falls through me like a waterfall,

I am comforted knowing there is serenity within, and taught to the world

every second I can choose your way, walking through a path unknown

my mind is lost because it cannot comprehend,

the extent of everything coinciding together, uniting into a singular perception which I am always certain, will guide my way home.

Home is not a place I have to find, it is not a title I have to earn. Home is wherever I am in the moment, for I am comforted by everything around me, no matter where it is.
The mind uses fearful characters to create scenarios of danger, but if I remember love first, where can fear cause me harm?
Where do I experience conflict, if conflict cannot be registered in my mind. It is a silent state, everything illuminated and newly discovered. I have been here hundreds of times, I have sat here for many years, but there is not a moment where the scenery around me is not magnificent. The fountain I sit on, the benches lined up around it.. may they be lying still, but such beauty can be found in the most generic things. The generic is so, only if we associate it with mediocrity. It is not hard to find beauty in the most simple things, the most common things we experience day to day can be beautiful if we allow them to be. I may look rugged but my outer layer is not representative of the inner light which God has revealed. God opens this light simply with a yes to surrendering our self image, and everything illusionary we think brings peace, to a truth which eliminates the major factors of the egos survival, who am i? what will i do to survive? who will love me?

It is my conviction and opinion, that as we are diverse and unique souls in the universe, there is one source which we seek. A place of belonging, an environment filled with people or activities we love, good moments with those we care about and new ways of finding our identity. I wonder why there is the collective desire to find love because it seems to be a calling of humanity we forget. Its nice to enjoy the small moments seeing the trees move with the wind, or saying something that brings about a smile. I hope these moments of kindness are shown to you, as well as finding the conviction to give kindness to others as well. Even in the most difficult days when the storm is brewing, we can still find comfort in the arms of our brothers and sisters nearby.

There's moments when everything seems to be falling apart
I see the worst in who I am. Is that where I will go?
I imagine myself as a vile being
And I hate a part of me I don't understand
I want to grow and be successful
If I make money, so be it
If I live on the streets, I will wander
It matters more I discover who I am
Am I a person of peace,
or am I a person who will constantly mess up the opportunities set before me
spiral downward and end up regretting who I am
I don't want to hide anymore
I don't want to look the other way
It is easier to turn away from the truth because we can't accept it
So Tonight,
Maybe that will be something I will discover in my dreams
Maybe I will have to wait longer for me to accept who I really am
How do I rise above these insecurities and forgive myself for my own misperceptions
for my own misunderstanding and stubbornness

The last few weeks have been difficult
Life seems to stand at you with an iron rod, threatening you to do better
to achieve something greater so you don't worry about the rest of your life.
Do I wonder where I am going now?
It feels like a trap when I choose a high road, the low road jumps in front of me as I walk along
I don't know if I could really last long upon the way that would be positive because I don't love who I am
In the endless search for meaning, I wrote this poem a while back, and it gave me hope. Love

Broke down, I will close my eyes and heal

For now, I am awakened to my true meaning

Would I deny, a debt I've been ignoring

By diving deeper into a world unknown

Where things seem out of place

The world is not a steady pace

Where nothing is everything 

And silence the loudest music

Where freedom is a blanket

That covers every fiber of being

It holds you tightly and shows you 

Even when you're unaware of what it would want

A love so tender and so rare 

Even the clouds move to find it 

I am an open book to the world
glance my pages as I walk by,
Read the message, and get to know the
story behind my smile

It was written in ancient times, before man walked these halls
When there was only one Name..
Such magnificent form grew from just one spark,
A roar of OM, from the blot of timelessness to the ever now
Here is where I AM came from,
And hence never resting even as these words form
I AM, came as a vision of oneness
Magnificent to the young lost eye,
Deepening the trance to which it would pull him

Such a heart, faces tribulation, even though things are given him,
Sloth, when success is at his doorstep. Distracted by many things, most certainty
Slender curves effeminate

I AM, is always there. When falling through wells of guilt
Seeking pleasures which bandage the soul
Finding pathways which have no true purpose
It sits like a lake in the sunlight, giving to all around it,
it is taken for granted, and quite distracting

The Lake is my smile,
When I am sad, I close my eyes and swim in its endless water
If guilt tears my soul, I drink ever more
When I am lonely, I lay beside it and it soothes me
Now and forever more,
I would never forget that I AM truly love