In a field of grass I was plentiful without,
The universe which I was present,
Gave me a myriad of choices in the one percent which I hath lived in.
For among this myriad I was given but two ideas and paths to wander down, 
and if I chose both the sword cut through me and I would have to start over,
But I was not alone,
For among these two choices, only one was realistic, 
only one could be the truth in a realm which was hard to explain.
In the universe so plentiful, how can things be so simple?
 Isn't it a mark of the human mind to see complication? 
To address complication and apply complication? 
Unraveling and unfolding the unwarranted challenges that the world has delved itself deeper in?
The deepest fear was a heart of commitment to both these choices,
One seems to make everything come alive,
 while the other is a distraction to the universe which dwells within.
I'm sorry if I am straightforward, but no more can we linger in the darkness. 
If it is sentiment and health which we desire, then why not go upon a path which health and sentiment is certain?
Say no more you are lost, for the universe is kind.
A field of grass, simple in its plant life, 
seems far more reasonable than a city of wonders,
 but could never be as diverse as an ocean where life lives in more colors and mystery than the dress she wears.
Being complacent, 
no matter where the road may take us, 
and thanking that we have been given what we have been given.
So this is the opposite to common temptation. It is time to be whole again.

I haven't been posting lately, but I've been praying a lot and searching for the right way to know God. 

Today’s lesson in the Course of Miracles is,” Let me not forget my function” a practice which we all seem to stray from when we live in this world. However, when we draw away from the negativity in our lives and read the Bible or the Course in Miracles, God is always speaking to us saying,” You no longer need to live in fear.” I've been reading John lately, and a quote that would have to most relate to this topic is,” When he comes, he will prove the world to be wrong about sin and righteousness and judgement”(John 16:10). What does this really say about our loves? Is not God saying that his son has proved the world wrong? I say yes, he has proved it wrong. What is he saying he will prove wrong? Righteousness, sin, and Judgement. So what does this mean?  What is our function in the world? A Course in Miracles says,” The idea for today reaffirms your commitment to salvation. It also reminds you that you have no other function than that” (CIM WB 65 1-2). So how, then do we live our days? Not in sin or misery, but glorifying God in every way. 

Walk from your door with God leading the way, what could possibly go wrong? Live with love for your neighbors, love God with all your heart, all your mind, and all your soul, as Jesus says in Matthew 22. These are the commandments we must live by. But how do we live by these commandments? For it seems the world trembles with fear, and we meet people and see things that haunt us, instances in our life experience which we struggle with every day. I know, we all have days which test our faith, and all feel tempted by what the world offers. But, here I insist. Do not forget your function as teachers of God’s most fundamental laws. What better way to live by teaching so that you may learn them. True grace is trusting in God. And God is not a part of the world, the past or future, trust in him is not like Trust in our brothers or sisters. Trust in God is surrendering yourself, your desires, your possessions and habits. Surrendering oneself is very difficult. Society is built entirely upon the Self concept; by this I mean every source of media is marketing towards fulfilling your needs, never God’s. 

Remember what I referenced in John however, that He would prove wrong righteousness, judgement and sin. How does the world know righteousness, judgement and sin? Sin is that which brings us guilt, which separates us from God. Pleasure to sexual immorality, anger, envy; those are a few, but the Bible defines them clearly,” But mark this, there will be terrible times in the last days. People will be lovers of themselves, lovers of money, boastful, proud, abusive, disobedient to their parents, ungrateful, unholy, without love, unforgiving, slanderers […]” (2 Timothy 3:1-4). The list goes on. Yes it is vital to recognize where sin is in our lives. For sin separates us from God. It is a circle we never can be free of without Jesus. But this is not a sermon about why we are miserable sinners. This is a sermon about recognizing our new life with God through Jesus Christ our Lord. For we can never truly achieve peace without God; we can never find salvation separate from Jesus. These are our creators. Our light in the darkness.

Let us be convicted now, that love is His answer, and as we carry on through the day, our love is based on the moment. For did we not sin in the past? Is that not where our sins abide? And our intentions to sin lie in the future, no? Start anew, and live in the moment for Jesus, for this is where sins are made, but it is also where sins are overlooked. Be a teacher of his freedom, and every interaction be loving; do not let your focus stray from the Christ. They call it “Christ” Presence for a reason. Does Jesus not immediately hold out his hand to catch Peter? Not in the past or future, now! Is not Jesus the perfect example, for in his crucifixion, he never lifted a hateful hand, never cursed the crowd or resisted his Fate. Jesus knew what God had willed for him, and he never resisted, and he took upon all our sins for us. Not only did he look upon those who persecuted him with love, but he saw those who sinned against him with love. Who could be a more perfect teacher which calls us to be spreaders of Faith, by being the perfect example of Faith? No one, and this is how he proved righteousness, judgement and sin wrong, with God's love. This is why we must teach as He has taught us, so that God’s plan may be fulfilled. Do not forget your function my brothers and sisters, do not fall to the temptations that the world brings, do not lose heart and fear persecution. See each person as they are in God’s image, and love each of them to the fullest through Christ Jesus our Lord.

A prayer:

Father, we are so thankful for the things you have shown us in life. Thank you for your love and affection, and for always showing us the better way. Please bring us the path which we must walk in, please guide us on the path towards you always. Through Christ Jesus our Lord, Amen. 

Today I want to talk about my ongoing experiences with God.

I had been agnostic as a child, never grew up in church except for a Lutheran Church my parents took me too. When I was young, I had a teacher which taught me basic knowledge of the The Course In Miracles, which inspired a lot of my poetry when I was younger. He told me about this entity called the Ego, which I created, the Holy Spirit, which abides in us all, and myself, who chooses between the two: I wrote this when I was young

Like You, I Cry

Feeling the wind rush past my face.

Winter.

It’s all I feel,

The same freezing white snow.

Step, step, thump, thud,

I walk through the snow.

On the sidewalk, lonely,

Three friends.

Only Max walks by my side.

Talking. Talking about

How and who we are:

“Why are we here,” I ask,

“Who created us?”

Max answers,

“God is the thing who created us.”

A huge gust sweeps us off our feet,

Onto the cold ground.

We laugh.

All I want is to have just one happy moment.

Life can be in many different forms.

Find those forms.

Live to find out.

It's simple, but remember, God always has a part in our lives, and he always influences us in some way. He always gives us a right or wrong decision. And it is our responsibility to see the right one.

When I was 17, I made the wrong decision because my sadness overlooked my reason. And in my pain I tried to reach out to him,"God, if you are up there, if you exist, will you help me know you, because I do not know what to do anymore". I wrote this about that experience:

Escape

The sound fades and grows,

Never sure yet it always expands in prominence,

Never great, but mystical in tempo,

It seems constant, slowly overtaking the mind

So innocent at first, an experience to become a nightmare

The scream overtakes a soul and fear clouds the mind.

Lifting medial objects seems like lifting a boulder,

The breath difficult and the sweat pouring from shoulders regularly strong

Something’s hidden, something’s lost

Must find the way of escape, must find a way out

Must understand what is the right passage…

Now calmly sit through the storm, the melody of chaos,

Thoughts and fears shoot across a room,” BAM”

Switching swiftly, worrying about the future, the mistake,

What is to come?

Prepare for the worst, but how to solve this insanity, what must a lost soul do?

The Horns of jazz sing, the creativity seems wild, there is a loss of hearing, checking reality as if it was not there. Help the mistake, drag it from Hell, pull its handles and pray for a higher purpose.

Give the scream to love, sitting in an ocean of fear and misunderstanding.

Any fear is still here in the blistering cold,

One bursts forth, challenging a misconception, challenging the escape, retreating to reality, the sweet haven of support calls even though no sound penetrates the ear drum.

The tone deaf shadow runs through the doors, to find another who can give redemption.

And one is surprised, but the magnitude of escape the soul pursued

Never falter, drink the water, and deny it happened

Yet sleep never came.

The dawn creeps upon the night as eyes stare wide open,

The safeguard is called; quick embraces and misunderstanding fill a shaken room.

A blurry shot of questions follow, must report, must find why this lost soul would hurt itself so.

Climb to the red blur, the needle pierce the sin.

A ride to remember

Thoughts of worry, shoot again across the mind, make it balanced, they ask more questions

Make sure you talk through the storm, these people are not mindful of it, ease the people around you that care. Whit gowns scurry across the room.

Handing black liquid to expel the evil that seemed good,

The eyes never shut, what you did was a lie

Try to survive and draw attention to the mess,

The depression that pushes the soul, drives it to insanity

The hate that grows larger, and the hole getting deeper,

One must wonder where the path of life leads

And so escape seems necessary. Gather the essentials for survival, ready to face any challenge

Yet escape is to get away from, to draw oneself from what could be most important to life

This sets back to primal instinct, unable to deal with the robotic and redundant application that society asks him

Please hurry father, the son has found his error

Misunderstands this selfish act

Loved ones gather and support,

A lost soul now knows that one is never alone, and they are always there for it

Yet fate has other things in store, hooked to machines, the body asks for release,

Yet human error harms this body, and movement is not as swift.

A terribly depressing man walks into the room, he projects only hatred, for he is largely misunderstood, more so than the lost soul who lies in screaming confusion and depravation.

Leaving now, home at last, finally the call of attention pays its dues. Living in an old familiar home, the lost soul is found, laying on the grass, the world not the world, but something of one. The found one knows purpose

It punches the mind with a book

The course of miracles, the lesson of love

The true path is found, the escape lives on as but a memory,

The selfish act solves suffering, for not the search for redemption continues, and with it a goal, a lesson.

To love one, for one is all. 

That's all for now, 

I want to write a quick prayer:

Dear God, thank you for all your works,

Thank you for the joy you bring to all things, 

I am so grateful that you have saved me from myself,

and set me free from the hatred I once knew. 

Please love all my brothers and sisters,

Please give love to all my family and my friends. 

Show me the way and let us know you and love you 

Loving, Vibrant and Graceful

By Avery

There are two choices we can make, these choices have to do with how we live out our lives, in essence resemble what we teach. There are many ways in which these choices impact our relationships with others. The distinction between these two choices is fear, and love.We're going to focus on love, because God embodies all acts of love."What is there to decide? For it is conflict that makes choice possible. The truth is simple; it is one without an opposite. And how could strife enter in its simple presence, and bring complexity where oneness is?" (CIM 26 II- 6-10)All choices of love resemble the oneness that encompasses the universe. It is the world we know that brings us pain, for in our journey through the world, we become disappointed because of its lacking in love. But when we look to God, he fills us with his love, and sets free any of the pain we thought we had. Just trust in Him

The Lord lets me walk.
I walk when my legs are limb. 
When my body is broken;
The Lord sets me free.
From the boundaries I place around me,
I am mended and filled with spirit;I am graceful and filled with love.
The Lord lets me walk, 
When I ask him; let me know no more pain,
He brings down his thought
And fills the part of me that abides in him
When I am lost, I turn to the truth,
I turn to the home which always comforts me.
When I fear
His love casts it away.
When I know not love, 
He taps my shoulder and reminds me of the truth
And each day I set out,With my love springing forth to my peers around me
My smile says," God is with me now"
And we shall show all,Not the illusions which bind this world.
But the spirit which forever shines within

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