May I rest in the Arms of my Father

May I seek now, the way to God. 

For I have been through a world where all investment is in tatters, 

where all my efforts to live for myself leave me sad with who I am, 

frustrated at the world outside, hurt and broken by the distractions of the world,

May I now turn to a God who loves me, he who shows me a way that does not lead to death,

Shows me healing in his love and peace in his presence. 

I find wisdom in his word and truth comes out of the pages and touches my soul, 

where one day I will stand at the throne and my choices in life will directly affect my life evermore. 

Now I am confused, for I see two paths which I could follow. But one is the destruction of my soul, and another is the rebuilding of who I am. I struggle with both because such destruction is easy, but rebuilding the foundation of who I am is a trial I sometimes cannot bear to face. If I am lost, then certainly, my God would redirect me, complete trust in his plan for me and his role for me... One I hope to follow but feel I must sacrifice for. And there is one who sacrificed everything for us all, who sat and faced persecution despite his innocence, who knew God would not forsake him so he said it so we would never feel the same. 

I confess him every day, his name and my graciousness for his mercy, his fearlessness never ceases to amaze me. May I rest in the arms of my Father one day, as Jesus is now.